Why I Started This Journey

Now I must be very honest, this book was very long in coming, because people who I have shared some of my stories with have said for years, you need to write a book. Honestly, I have started and stopped writing this book many times over the years, but I could never bring myself to relive the hurt, pain, disgrace, disappointment, shame, and sadness of my life. And maybe, just maybe, I didn’t want to release my story of being mistreated to gain the spotlight from time to time. Having this story gave me an excuse to stay stuck and that’s exactly what I’ve done for as long as I can remember. Accepting behavior that I know I wasn’t deserving of, loving people who didn’t love me, loving people more than I loved myself and not stopping the emotional abuse until the damage was already done.

This book has given me the courage to realize that I am worthy, I am special and I deserve everything good that is heading my way.  By writing this book I have laid all my dirty secrets on the table and I now realize that I have nothing, to be ashamed of.  This is my life, I did the best I could with the tools that I had, and now that I know better I’m going to do better.  I am the example for my daughters, and the daughters of the world, to not allow my circumstances define who I am and what I accept from others.